Thanks Friend...

Tonight I missed a dear friend of mine. I missed his companionship and the good times we had together. I missed how he listened quietly while I rambled on about my random & nonsensical thoughts. I missed how he laughed at his own jokes even though they were not funny. And most importantly, I missed being his friend.

You see this friend of mine, was once more than just a friend. We dated a couple summers ago. And it was a lot of fun. Some of the dates we went on are still the best dates that I’ve ever been on. He took me kayaking down the river, fishing on kayaks, bike riding in the canyon, & star gazing during a meteor shower. I had a blast with him. My love for the outdoors & adventure were equally shared with him. Those were good days.

The problem though was that I realized that he cared about me more than I cared about him. I couldn’t give him what he wanted. And so I ended it. He understood. I went back to school for my last year & returned. I thought that after a year he would have moved on & that we could be friends. But I was wrong. I had to let him down again. And now we only live a mile away from each other but have not seen or talked to each other in months. It’s kind of sad.

Because the truth is, he was a good friend – a great friend actually. And though I do not wish to date him again. Nor do I regret breaking up with him. I wish that we could be friends again. I wish that we could still go on our adventures or that I could tell him about my silly thoughts. I can’t though because things are different. It’s too awkward now between us. So I guess I will just settle with saying how grateful I am to have had such a great friend. And though I miss being his friend, I hope that he is happy & has found someone else with whom he can be that same great friend with.