Water Explosion

Well I just had a very embarrassing experience at work. First I'll mention that we bring our own water bottles from home to work because there is no drinking fountain and the bathroom water is not that appealing. My boss would say the water taste like toilet water. As to how he knows what toilet water taste like I am not quite sure. So I bought a 72 ounce water bottle that looks like a mini water cooler jug. Let's just say that is a LOT of water. I'm trying to be healthy. So I'm sitting here working and think I need to drink some water. Boy do I regret that decision. One moment I'm enjoying a refreshing drink & then CRACK...... water is suddenly gushing out all over me. I didn't even have time to react as all 72 ounces of water drenched my body and poured on to the floor. I was in complete shock. Apparently when I squoze it to make the water come out I had done so with too much force in one spot. Causing one giant crack in the bottom of bottle and a pool of water at my feet.

As odd as it sounds, I keep a blanket at work (that's another story) so I used that to soak up all the water. My clothes are pretty wet & I should probably go home & change but don't want to. Way too much effort. So I'll just sit at my desk & let the sun shining through the window dry me up. Thankfully it didn't get on my keyboard or computer. Welp, if I wasn't awake before, I sure am now.

Phone Call

Today my good friend Mr. Briggs gave me a call. This pleased me immensely. I haven't talked to him in awhile cause he is in Washington and I am not. He called to tell me he is coming to Utah on Friday for a whole week. One whole week! I may or may not be totally excited. He'll be doing the whole family thing a lot, but still. Mr. Briggs & I are freshmen friends from college. I love doing stuff with him because he is so chill. Possibly one of the most chill guys I know. But not in a bad, lazy chill kind of way. But in a good way. Everyone should be friends with him really. So yeah he is coming & I can't wait!

It was a Great Season

Even though the Cougars were defeated last night I would still like to tip my hat off to them. They made it to the Sweet 16 for the first time in 30 years! That's awesome! And though I'm sad they aren't progressing to the next round, I'm glad that I could see them go this far. It's been fun watching them. I will admit that I'm sad that Jimmer is leaving though. The kid is simply amazing! The shots that he make are indescribable. Last night I had a dream that he came over and had dinner with my family and me. Best dream ever! If only the dream was reality. It will be fun to see what he does when he goes Pro. Good luck Jimmer wherever you go next year & for the rest of the Cougar team......I'll see you again next season.

Lava Monster

Today while I was volunteering at the Crisis Nursery I played lava monster with the kids for like two hours. Might seem boring to some, but oh my goodness I had a BLAST. I was running around chasing half a dozen kids, climbing playground equipment, going down the slides, & sometimes chased in return by the half a dozen kids. I seriously loved it! Little kids are so fun. You don't need to impress them. They don't care. All they want is someone to play with them & give them a little positive attention. That's all you have to do to win them over & they love you. Too bad it's not that easy with adults. Life would be way more entertaining if all you had to do to become friends with someone would be to chase them around & go down the slides a few times with them. But now that I am visualizing that in my head I am getting real awkward scenarios that would occur. So maybe playing tag with another adult is a poor idea.....

Anyways, I had a blast just playing with the kids & reverting back to my child like ways temporarily. I think that everybody should try doing it every once in a while. It's a good way to spend time & remind you that life doesn't have to be as stressful as we adults like to make it be.

Thanks Friend...

Tonight I missed a dear friend of mine. I missed his companionship and the good times we had together. I missed how he listened quietly while I rambled on about my random & nonsensical thoughts. I missed how he laughed at his own jokes even though they were not funny. And most importantly, I missed being his friend.

You see this friend of mine, was once more than just a friend. We dated a couple summers ago. And it was a lot of fun. Some of the dates we went on are still the best dates that I’ve ever been on. He took me kayaking down the river, fishing on kayaks, bike riding in the canyon, & star gazing during a meteor shower. I had a blast with him. My love for the outdoors & adventure were equally shared with him. Those were good days.

The problem though was that I realized that he cared about me more than I cared about him. I couldn’t give him what he wanted. And so I ended it. He understood. I went back to school for my last year & returned. I thought that after a year he would have moved on & that we could be friends. But I was wrong. I had to let him down again. And now we only live a mile away from each other but have not seen or talked to each other in months. It’s kind of sad.

Because the truth is, he was a good friend – a great friend actually. And though I do not wish to date him again. Nor do I regret breaking up with him. I wish that we could be friends again. I wish that we could still go on our adventures or that I could tell him about my silly thoughts. I can’t though because things are different. It’s too awkward now between us. So I guess I will just settle with saying how grateful I am to have had such a great friend. And though I miss being his friend, I hope that he is happy & has found someone else with whom he can be that same great friend with.

An Adventurous Girl

When I was kid I was so adventurous & bold. If I wanted to do something I usually made it happen. Or at least did my best attempt at making it happen. Shyness wasn't really a huge issue for me either. My older brother always jokes that when I met a new person I would be shy for about two seconds and then suddenly be best friends with the person. Probably an early sign of my interest in people. But the point is that I didn't let things scare me enough to stop me. If I liked a boy in my class I told him point blank. If I wanted to ride a razor scooter down the steepest hill in my city without a helmet I did. I climbed the tallest trees I could find. I roamed through the neighborhoods exploring for treasures. I talked to strangers on the city bus. I found people to play with. I had no inhibitions.

That was when I was kid.

Something changed over the years for me. I'm not as bold or fearless as I once was. I still feel comfortable talking to strangers and I still like going on outdoor adventures. I still like learning new things. But now if I like someone the very thought of admitting it makes me tense. Sometimes when thrown into new situations I experience a slight panic before I can calm myself down. And driving in any foreign or unfamiliar place stresses me out hardcore.

So I have to wonder, what changed?

What in my life made me second guess myself? Was it just a part of growing up? Did I learn it from others? These are questions that have occupied my mind the last few days. I'm not saying that I don't like who I am. Because I do like myself. I like who I am & where I am in life. But I do want to re find that adventurous, bold, & fearless little girl that I once was. I think she would add more enjoyment to my life. I see glimpses of her occasionally. And I've got to say that life is definitely more spontaneous & fun when she returns. I guess what I'm trying to get across is that for a point in time I didn't let things stop me or scare me. I want to be like that again.